Recently I ran into someone who I used to know and because of many family misunderstandings, I no longer talk to the people I once considered my family. It has to do with my mother's passing. Maybe this is a familiar story to you?
The reason running into my niece’s old roommate brought up former pain brings me back to this post.
Let me explain. I greatly appreciate Zoe Moon Astrology. Zoe has helped me understand my astrological chart and especially Chiron- The Wounded Healer. Chiron is prominent in my chart and now I understand so much more than I used to about its placement in my chart and in my life.
I don’t know about you, but I have always been different; a maverick; a person who listens to the beat of my own drummer. That is not widely accepted in our society. Our society rewards us by conforming and keeping us all moving in the same direction. That is great! We share surface aspects of ourselves and most people don’t spend time questioning the deeper aspects of human nature. Let’s face it. It’s a can of worms!
I have always been unusual and expressed myself through art and music. That has helped me value the deep things with meanings that require intense introspection. It’s kind of what Chiron is all about.
This morning on my walk I was thinking about all of this and feeling intense pain while looking at our amazing healer, Lake Michigan. I love our lake so much and am grateful for her presence in my life.
At that moment of intense pain, I chose to feel empathy toward all of those people that no longer speak to me or have shamed me. That includes my sisters and their daughters, my nieces who I helped raise and loved dearly. Talk about a wound!
In that moment I took the pain, felt it to the max, and made a decision to allow whatever pain wanted to escape to come to the surface. It’s always been lurking in there anyway underneath it all.
This is one of Chiron’s amazing moments. Transform pain into strength. How else would it be called the wounded healer?
I embrace you Chiron and the painful memories and allow you to transform me so that I can have more empathy and understanding to those who have hurt me. Let’s be real. It’s a path of painful fire.
This is my life work while using the crystal bowls and my voice. I take that deep pain and express it with love through song and crystal bowls. I am here to help heal all the pain; in myself and others. Hopefully, the pain we all carry can transform into love and peace. It is my true mission and I am very clear about it.
We need each other. Sometimes it’s through wordless moments that we connect. Most always, pain brings us to our knees and helps us see our false pretenses. In that moment we can see how much we share with everyone. We are not alone. We are truly connected.
That’s why during sound meditation sessions people release and can cry or have other emotional responses. Things line up. Our vulnerability is real. We see where we are and become naked to ourselves.
It can be unnerving and it helps us grow. We start to see ourselves, take responsibility, and have a greater understanding of ourselves and others.
The path out is thorny and unruly. It’s ongoing and we question ourselves and our beliefs.
There is always an anchor. Maybe it’s a friend, maybe the trees whisper to you it’s going to be alright. Maybe someone looks at you with love in their eyes just because. There are so many moments like that in life.
It’s one step at a time and the path is narrow and uphill. Don’t believe anything else. We are here to work. All of it is up to us and how do we want to proceed?
I have been in many spiritual groups, gone to mystery schools, and began in yoga when it was a cult. Been married and experienced the pain of divorce. I am choosing to continue to look inside and see how I can help one person at a time.
I am happy to be here. I wouldn’t have missed this adventure for anything. Yes, there is pain and also tremendous joy. It’s who we are that counts.
Uncover the truth inside. It’s always there. Let’s join together with a better of understanding of ourselves so we can navigate this maze together.
With a light heart, I am so glad you are here now.
Love,
Marian